Stellar Idiosyncrasy

Long post ahead. extend if you’re in a computer café. Stay patient if you’re at home.

The start of something is in motion today. april’s giving me some of my “first” of everything for today. yes, but a more something I could get, could perceive, could concern about for too much.

5 hours before the impact. The inconclusive day brought me and my april to pasig palengke today. I hurriedly packed stuffed belongings to the emotionally motivated output bag and tada I go. Text to connect, I deeply knew that she was waiting for some time out there, and that deeply force myself to jump to major concern number one for the day.

4 hours before the impact. I arrived there searching for her, but only to find out that she was standing outside 7 eleven, leaning on the railings, holding her cellular phone, and watching me come closer to her. upon arrival, I made her feel me by touching her and making her secure by that time, on that time. I knew in the first place, that there was something wrong, she just won’t admit it.

45 minutes added to the deadline. We entered the adjoining Greenwich and Jollibee branch in that venue. Split orders we share – lasagna and 39ers that is. we momentarily do a tête-à-tête while spooning her and mine on an Ube Ice Craze. She was talking about how her mother (our mama, ok?) that I should FREAKILY upgrade my grades, and though not just bargain off. and then the norm. and then our love quarrels. And then I noticed her allergy again. it was increasing but I just did minor precaution for a major boom.

2 hours and dropping. Totally decided that we head Rainforest park – the place I never knew that it’ll make my wife’s condition bad to worst. Entered the park with stories to tell about a place we’ve never been to. Started the journey by butterfly bitter garden, the infamous rainforest deforested, the dinosaur friggin’ park, Started the journey which makes me senseless and gets one step closer to her adversity. Then I finally noticed that the spots in her skin are causing a massive mushroom cycle. I placed her by my side too close for her comfort on a 150php cottage (I wonder why there’s a fee when you can use it freely) and examine the case. It was the worst skin allergy I have handled. My grandfather didn’t expose me to these kinds – just the dead ones, that is. This triggers my major concern number two for the day.

35 minutes till we meet disaster. She was lying down my lap. I was looking at her skin and how the allergy’s status – swallowing her confidence and strength. At this point, my eyes and hands are demonized. She was wearing one of the daring clothes I could possibly say she would wear if I say (sexy, sobra, oo I admit). I was looking at her… well, her BASTA!, but the skin allergy drew a more picture for me. Seduced I was back then, I negate every all other things and focused on one thing – she must be treated at once. Ding. A guard signaled that the place’s closure met. I hold her hand and leave, not knowing that a doom will come her way. Sooo damn me for not finding out this early.

5 minutes, 4 minutes, 3 minutes, 2 minutes, and one.

We arrived again to the place where we met in the first place today. we started walking on the sidewalks which reads, “no vendors allowed. sidewalks are for vendors”, proceeding to the mark where I could send her home.

She was gasping for air. She was reluctant on answering on my questions. Her body’s starting to give up on mine. she told me that she couldn’t see me anymore. I started to panic.

5 seconds, 4, 3, 2, one…

She collapsed on me, in the middle of the waiting area. Both her eyes are so widely glared towards the sky. A sight for me so horrible that even right now it’s haunting me while i’m making this post, that still is in my perceiving session, that gives me these teary eyes, palpitations and prelude to a nightmare. Poof. Back there, I thrust her back her feet but felt weakened. At that moment, the only thing I knew is that I must bring her to the nearest sickbay. I mind populace around me no. I am seeing none. I grab both her legs, hold her body up. Nevertheless, people saw what the commotion is about. A tricycle has been summoned. Three to four people carried her to be inside. I was in shock. I could not bear carry her that time, though I knew I easily can, since it was so easy truly, but i can’t after. My strength suddenly got out of my system. I leap inside the vehicle and instructed the operator to rush us to the nearest hospital to care.

The dimwit but truly a good Samaritan. He brought us first to a DSWD building. Great job number one. Second, a maternity clinic. All people stared at me and bombard one massive question: “buntis ba yan?”

I wish.

Then we did a turn to the nearest TRUE hospital. As the tricycle driver yell for help in inside, I hold her hand so tight. She responds with a tight hold too. 40% she’s ok. Then as the help arrives, I pushed all my will strength to bring her in the monobloc chair. After then the two peeps carry her. But, a bluff arise. They can’t carry her. I assist a greater lifter to them and lifted up again my wife to the hospital’s emergency lay. I knew she’s safe for now. I gasp final for air and blew. Relief. I got it in time.

After she was treated, I talked about what the hell on earth happened to her. She was talking in discreet. She was demanding she was fine, she was demanding she will not be confined and to go home. She demands I stay at her side. – I negate except the last. I gave her our usual quarrels and love insights. She was in bliss, I was on extreme. I shower her with her all-time favorite lines and gestures, but deep inside me, she never knew, I was on the verge of crying and deep freezing… I am sooo concerned. Time pass, I decided to call mama, and in a few hours, they came. I was like waiting for sermons but I got none. All I faced is great gratitude and acceptance from her. We’re LEGALLY LEGAL now, i thought.

I accompany my april outside Sabater and there waited for their vehicle home. Our final moment today is to sat down by the vicinity of the hospital. She turns her head onto my shoulders and i draw her nearer tight. This was my entire fault I thought, but she won’t accept it for sure. Suddenly her mother approached me and said, “kung pupunta ka pa sa bahay, dun ka na matulog. Kung uuwi ka, baka gabihin ka pa. Bukas ka na lang bumalik”

Decided. Tomorrow I have a reason for to see and to feel her. And just as the B. Bayan jeepney arrives, I bade farewell to my dearest sick-to-seafood morbid freak.

yes! dahil sa shooting kanina, may talent fee ako. wooh.

toodles.